Claire's Journey... Raw, Real & Honest. Not for anyone under the age of 18.

Claire Margaret Long time, no post! sorry about that! I was sick for 2 weeks like actually sick so i was isolating and honestly i have a auto immune disease called "Hashimoto's Disease" so when I get sick I dont half ass it, I actually get real sick! But I came good the end of last week and got to see one of my daughter's play football on mothers day and she did fantastic, this is her 5th year in football as well as my youngest son and my oldest daughter is in her first year of playing footy and she is a natural and dont those footy outfits suit all 3 of them!!! Yesterday I did my usual 6 weekly self care and got my nails done! My attention span was shot yesterday... my ADHD was realy playing up, to sit there through having my nails done was actually extremely difficult to the point where my hands and arms started twitching because I felt like I needed to burst with energy and run in circles or something, normally I am able to force myself to relax and unwind when...

Claire Margaret So at the start of the year i dedicated alot of my time to exercise and just being healthy over all, but in the past 3 weeks i have really slacked off so this week i have gotten back into it again , i will even walk instead of catch the tram if where im going isnt too far away!!! Its something about walking that just releases any stress and tension in the body! I have also started moisturising everyday just like i use too and just.overall beauty regime so im feeling alive!!! Back in January i had some of my medications changed from 20mgs lexapro to 1000mgs of eplim a day to stabilise my moods (eplim is used for seizures or a mood stabiliser for bipolar 1 disorder)when it comes to my bipolar disorder and honestly i feel like i have just started to balance out in the last month which is fantastic and i am proud of myself for sticking it out because normally i would give up and go nope this isnt working and stop taking it, i havnt had any spontaneous manic shopping whic...

Claire Margaret Hello to the people that take the time out to read my blog entries!!! Sorry i didnt post last Thursday, so i will try and make this post worth your while!... Where have i been at in the last 2 weeks??? Well i am still sober! But it hasnt been easy lately because i have been very emotional over a number of things and even have silent cries when i am by myself occasionally. I dont consider myself a very emotional person so to be this emotional lately is kind of weird, like i actually care alot about stuff, things and people even strangers!!! Well the Claire in active addiction isnt emotional she is a piece of work, so maybe this is just me evolving on my journey, considering i was a addict for 15 years or so and now i am 32 years old discovering who i am as a adult person for the first time ever which is weird. Anyways i have been watching alot of tribute videos that loved ones have published about there person they lost through overdose and honestly i just cry and cry a...

Claire Margaret So i just want to address the elephant in the room here... In my last blog post an "anonymous" person decided to leave a very hateful and nasty comment on my blog post and guess what, i am not going to delete it, why? Because if i were to even shed a tear or acknowledge that kind of behaviour in a negative way then what kind of person would i be, especially when anyone and everyone can read it... i have thicker skin than that, i was brought up to believe that words dont mean anything its your actions that speak volumes, however i guess i have my first online troll and thats kind of exciting. You see the thing is that i know my journey and i am not here to bring anyone down or try to belittle anyone... im here to shed some light on addiction and maybe help a loved one understand or maybe even be a safe space for everyone to lean on one another. So anyways just know i have tough skin and a keyboard warrior isnt even give a second too look at however everyone i...

Claire Margaret So I missed out on publishing a new blog post last Thursday and 2 days ago, but I can explain!!! I was having a tough week last week, my bipolar had hit a low, everything was effort, I stopped eating, my unit I live in went to a mess and it was my dad's 2 year death anniversary on the Friday 7th March, I also sunk as low as self-harming super ficially because I believed my unit was haunted and had negative energy and that had transferred into my body so I had to bleed it out probably because I hadn't really taken my medication for 2 weeks, so I ended up in st.vincents psychiatric ward in Melbourne and only got out the other day, so yeah I think that's a good enough explanation as to why I haven't published any new blog posts. So now that we are finally here, where do I begin? What should I talk about this time? I start at RMIT UNIVERSITY of Melbourne in July this year '2025' for 12 months and I have asked myself all year if it's a good ...

Claire Margaret Well long time no speak, where do i begin???? So above me here is my new Logo i created myself as a label that can hopefully grow and become familiar all over the world as if it was a symbol for greatness... and i hope i can bring greatness into amother addicts life, maybe its someone who has hiven up all hope, theyre really at rock bottom and to them it doesnt matter if theyre a mother, father, brother or sister, they just want out because living in active addiction is living in hell!!! Anyways change of topic as I am very tired but this blog post is a little late so i need to make it quick but the fact that i am following through says alot which is a massive thing when you get sober, your word becomes your word and that becomes trustworthy. okay so its coming up 2 years since i found out my dad was dead on his bedroom floor with his door baracaded and a smashed window with the bedroom and everything in it soaked with blood oh and he also had maggots in his body be...