Claire's Journey... Raw, Real & Honest. Not for anyone under the age of 18.

Claire Margaret Hello... Happy Sunday everyone! Lately I have been reflecting on alot of things in my life such as relationships, who i am as a person (still trying to figure that one out) and how much I have grown in the last 16 months since I decided to uproot my whole entire life and move to the city. I would have to say the most hardest part about moving away from my "friends" and what little family I have left, and I say 'what little family I have left' because i sabotaged multiple relationships with some of my loved ones through my past actions and behaviours and caused alot of heartache and unfortunately I haven't rekindled them as of yet, however I do hold onto hope and pray everyday that with time things will heal and we will come together again... anyways the hardest thing I have found since moving away over a year maybe year and half ago now was learning to sit with loneliness, learning to be in my own company, at first I hated it, now I have days whe...

Claire Margaret Hi, Sadly, 1 in 5 people experience a mental illness each year. This October, I'm walking 40km in One Foot Forward to help Australians impacted by mental illness and suicide. My goal is to raise funds for Black Dog Institute to put ground-breaking new mental health treatment, education, and digital services into the hands of the people who need them most. Please sponsor me and support my 40km challenge: https://www.onefootforward.org.au/fundraisers/clairesweeney Together, we can create better mental health for all Australians. you can also scan this QR code or simply comment on this blog post with your email and i can send you the information and details. Thank you. Claire Hello, it has been a few months since i posted a new blog. I have been so busy working on my mental health and managing my living skills with supports. so about 4 or 5 months ago i got a job but by the third week in i had a mental health relapse. I went into a manic state and my ...

Claire Margaret Long time, no post! sorry about that! I was sick for 2 weeks like actually sick so i was isolating and honestly i have a auto immune disease called "Hashimoto's Disease" so when I get sick I dont half ass it, I actually get real sick! But I came good the end of last week and got to see one of my daughter's play football on mothers day and she did fantastic, this is her 5th year in football as well as my youngest son and my oldest daughter is in her first year of playing footy and she is a natural and dont those footy outfits suit all 3 of them!!! Yesterday I did my usual 6 weekly self care and got my nails done! My attention span was shot yesterday... my ADHD was realy playing up, to sit there through having my nails done was actually extremely difficult to the point where my hands and arms started twitching because I felt like I needed to burst with energy and run in circles or something, normally I am able to force myself to relax and unwind when...

Claire Margaret So at the start of the year i dedicated alot of my time to exercise and just being healthy over all, but in the past 3 weeks i have really slacked off so this week i have gotten back into it again , i will even walk instead of catch the tram if where im going isnt too far away!!! Its something about walking that just releases any stress and tension in the body! I have also started moisturising everyday just like i use too and just.overall beauty regime so im feeling alive!!! Back in January i had some of my medications changed from 20mgs lexapro to 1000mgs of eplim a day to stabilise my moods (eplim is used for seizures or a mood stabiliser for bipolar 1 disorder)when it comes to my bipolar disorder and honestly i feel like i have just started to balance out in the last month which is fantastic and i am proud of myself for sticking it out because normally i would give up and go nope this isnt working and stop taking it, i havnt had any spontaneous manic shopping whic...

Claire Margaret Hello to the people that take the time out to read my blog entries!!! Sorry i didnt post last Thursday, so i will try and make this post worth your while!... Where have i been at in the last 2 weeks??? Well i am still sober! But it hasnt been easy lately because i have been very emotional over a number of things and even have silent cries when i am by myself occasionally. I dont consider myself a very emotional person so to be this emotional lately is kind of weird, like i actually care alot about stuff, things and people even strangers!!! Well the Claire in active addiction isnt emotional she is a piece of work, so maybe this is just me evolving on my journey, considering i was a addict for 15 years or so and now i am 32 years old discovering who i am as a adult person for the first time ever which is weird. Anyways i have been watching alot of tribute videos that loved ones have published about there person they lost through overdose and honestly i just cry and cry a...

Claire Margaret So i just want to address the elephant in the room here... In my last blog post an "anonymous" person decided to leave a very hateful and nasty comment on my blog post and guess what, i am not going to delete it, why? Because if i were to even shed a tear or acknowledge that kind of behaviour in a negative way then what kind of person would i be, especially when anyone and everyone can read it... i have thicker skin than that, i was brought up to believe that words dont mean anything its your actions that speak volumes, however i guess i have my first online troll and thats kind of exciting. You see the thing is that i know my journey and i am not here to bring anyone down or try to belittle anyone... im here to shed some light on addiction and maybe help a loved one understand or maybe even be a safe space for everyone to lean on one another. So anyways just know i have tough skin and a keyboard warrior isnt even give a second too look at however everyone i...