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Opinions are opinions, everyone has one!!!

Claire Margaret So i just want to address the elephant in the room here... In my last blog post an "anonymous" person decided to leave a very hateful and nasty comment on my blog post and guess what, i am not going to delete it, why? Because if i were to even shed a tear or acknowledge that kind of behaviour in a negative way then what kind of person would i be, especially when anyone and everyone can read it... i have thicker skin than that, i was brought up to believe that words dont mean anything its your actions that speak volumes, however i guess i have my first online troll and thats kind of exciting. You see the thing is that i know my journey and i am not here to bring anyone down or try to belittle anyone... im here to shed some light on addiction and maybe help a loved one understand or maybe even be a safe space for everyone to lean on one another. So anyways just know i have tough skin and a keyboard warrior isnt even give a second too look at however everyone i...

Delayed But Written...What do You Want to Hear About???

Claire Margaret So I missed out on publishing a new blog post last Thursday and 2 days ago, but I can explain!!! I was having a tough week last week, my bipolar had hit a low, everything was effort, I stopped eating, my unit I live in went to a mess and it was my dad's 2 year death anniversary on the Friday 7th March, I also sunk as low as self-harming super ficially because I believed my unit was haunted and had negative energy and that had transferred into my body so I had to bleed it out probably because I hadn't really taken my medication for 2 weeks, so I ended up in st.vincents psychiatric ward in Melbourne and only got out the other day, so yeah I think that's a good enough explanation as to why I haven't published any new blog posts. So now that we are finally here, where do I begin? What should I talk about this time? I start at RMIT UNIVERSITY of Melbourne in July this year '2025' for 12 months and I have asked myself all year if it's a good ...

Welcome Back!!! Year 2025!!!

Claire Margaret Well long time no speak, where do i begin???? So above me here is my new Logo i created myself as a label that can hopefully grow and become familiar all over the world as if it was a symbol for greatness... and i hope i can bring greatness into amother addicts life, maybe its someone who has hiven up all hope, theyre really at rock bottom and to them it doesnt matter if theyre a mother, father, brother or sister, they just want out because living in active addiction is living in hell!!! Anyways change of topic as I am very tired but this blog post is a little late so i need to make it quick but the fact that i am following through says alot which is a massive thing when you get sober, your word becomes your word and that becomes trustworthy. okay so its coming up 2 years since i found out my dad was dead on his bedroom floor with his door baracaded and a smashed window with the bedroom and everything in it soaked with blood oh and he also had maggots in his body be...

118 days

I made it to 118 days clean and sober, woohoo! I am 13 weeks into rehab, I graduate on the 14th December 2023 then stick around until the 9th January 2024, then I am off to another rehab for a further 16 weeks until the end of April 2024. I feel so blessed to have all of these opportunities, I truly feel like I am just starting my life for the first time in 30 years. People at rehab have been commenting on my slight weight loss, ive been eating healthy and exercising everyday so it's about time! I feel great! drugs never made me thin if anything they made me really unfit, atleast now I have some form of a fitness level and muscle tone, im still a big girl but I will get there. I cant believe how well I look compared to when I was on the meth and GHB. I am so proud of myself! I have a plan for after rehab and thats to get a job in a animal shelter or a veterinary clinic, I have started a course in animal care whilst I am in rehab as I am very passionate about animals since I was ...

90 days!

yesterday I hit 90 days, I can not believe it, I am so proud of myself. The growth in the last 11 months is unbelievable , I don't know when the last time I was 90 days sober, its been years! I just found out that my application for another rehab has been submitted so hopefully I get in and can go straight after I graduate at this rehab in December. To think it was only 11 months ago I was laying in a comba fighting for my life from a almost successful suicide attempt then I went to a mental health treatment centre at the start of the year, dad lost his battle to addiction in march that was devastating i will never forget the moment i found out and how i just broke down and fell to pieces because he was my best friend, then I hit the drugs hard, hardest i ever have to the point where I was at deaths door myself following dad in his footsteps which was the plan then suddenly when I had completely giving up i got into detox then rehab and now 91 days clean and sober like wow! I h...

Halfway there

As of Wednesday I will be 9 weeks into rehab, I have learnt alot about the disease of addiction but most of all i have learnt alot about myself and my self worth has grown. I have learnt that i am a good hearted person and when i put my mind to something there is no stopping me. I have made some awsome friends and am exercising everyday as well as eating healthy regular meals so as you can imagine i feel fantastic! I have also picked up a new hobbies, I now write poems! im currently writing 2 a day in hopes to publish my very own book of poems, I discovered the love of poem writing through being given the opportunity to do a poem for the talent show at rehab, as i wrote my poem for rehab it just flowed naturally and now has become apart of my everyday life. I don't ever see myself turning to drugs again but you never know when you are an addict, one thing about being an addict is you can never let your guard down because that is when the disease of addiction will strike. I attend...