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Claire Margaret So i just want to address the elephant in the room here... In my last blog post an "anonymous" person decided to leave a very hateful and nasty comment on my blog post and guess what, i am not going to delete it, why? Because if i were to even shed a tear or acknowledge that kind of behaviour in a negative way then what kind of person would i be, especially when anyone and everyone can read it... i have thicker skin than that, i was brought up to believe that words dont mean anything its your actions that speak volumes, however i guess i have my first online troll and thats kind of exciting. You see the thing is that i know my journey and i am not here to bring anyone down or try to belittle anyone... im here to shed some light on addiction and maybe help a loved one understand or maybe even be a safe space for everyone to lean on one another. So anyways just know i have tough skin and a keyboard warrior isnt even give a second too look at however everyone is entitled to their opinions and as i always say "what i talk about and post isnt for everyone" Anyways moving on... So exciting news!!! i recieved a email today from RMIT UNIVERSITY saying that shortly they will be sending out the email of when cert 4 in drug and alcohol starts!!! and the whole timetable ect. Omg i am so ready for this next chapter of my life!!! too think in a little over a year i could be working at my dream job of helping addicts in there very first step to one hell of a journey with their sobriety , i want to work in a detox centre!!! although confronting it will be, however as i said i have 'thick skin', and i know only a handful of those addicts will turn their lives around for good and a percentage of them will be dead when they next relapse, i also know that nobody can force someone to get clean, they have to do it when theyre ready!!! Thats it for now, Claire Xo
Location: Melbourne VIC, Australia

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