Claire Margaret
So at the start of the year i dedicated alot of my time to exercise and just being healthy over all, but in the past 3 weeks i have really slacked off so this week i have gotten back into it again , i will even walk instead of catch the tram if where im going isnt too far away!!! Its something about walking that just releases any stress and tension in the body! I have also started moisturising everyday just like i use too and just.overall beauty regime so im feeling alive!!!
Back in January i had some of my medications changed from 20mgs lexapro to 1000mgs of eplim a day to stabilise my moods (eplim is used for seizures or a mood stabiliser for bipolar 1 disorder)when it comes to my bipolar disorder and honestly i feel like i have just started to balance out in the last month which is fantastic and i am proud of myself for sticking it out because normally i would give up and go nope this isnt working and stop taking it, i havnt had any spontaneous manic shopping which is fantastic!!!
Anyways so the other night i got a call from My oldest son and my sister because my son had a homework project for health class and it was based on drugs so it was a bit of a confronting topic but at the same time he learnt a few things about my battle with addiction over the years and i dont know if that made a positive impact or not but he hasnt been talking to me, last sunday i went to my youngest sons footy match, i woke up extra early to get to it as it was nowhere near where i live and anywyas i said hi to my oldest son and he completely blew me off just looked straight ahead and walked past me, at first it didnt upset me it just made me angry but when i got home that night i cried and cried and cried and i even called james to come around and he did and he was amazing about the whole situation of me being an emotional mess!!! Myself and james have been dating for 3 months now and we had a bit of a hurdle the other week but we overcame it in our relationship by talking it out and listening too one another which was my first ever experience in a relationship because i an use to either being yelled at or ignored instead of work through any issues that may arise.
My good friend offered me to take my stuff out of storage and store it into her garage intil i get a more permanent place, im living in a fully furnished unit at the moment, anyways so my friend knows how much i been struggling financially because of these storage payments and im constantly applying for jobs and getting nowhere because i cant pass a police check and the most recent chsrges were 5 months ago and ive been on a community corrections order since November 2024, random drug screens, continuous treatments for mental health and addiction loss of license for 2 and half years and cant leave the state until February next year... the main charge that prevents me from passing a police check is "reckless conduct endangering life' which i have a couple of them on my record i was very lucky not to go to jail but if i breach any of this by February 2026 than its 3 months imprisonment for each breach so yeah thats a big motivator for me these days!!!Anyways so my good friend is going to let me store my stuff in her garage for free, i just need to sort out a removalist truck so in the process of doing that, i have never had someone in my life other than my family who wants to just help out of the kindness of their heart because they see and recognise your struggles.
okay thats all for rhis week!!!
claire Xo
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