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Halfway there

As of Wednesday I will be 9 weeks into rehab, I have learnt alot about the disease of addiction but most of all i have learnt alot about myself and my self worth has grown. I have learnt that i am a good hearted person and when i put my mind to something there is no stopping me. I have made some awsome friends and am exercising everyday as well as eating healthy regular meals so as you can imagine i feel fantastic! I have also picked up a new hobbies, I now write poems! im currently writing 2 a day in hopes to publish my very own book of poems, I discovered the love of poem writing through being given the opportunity to do a poem for the talent show at rehab, as i wrote my poem for rehab it just flowed naturally and now has become apart of my everyday life. I don't ever see myself turning to drugs again but you never know when you are an addict, one thing about being an addict is you can never let your guard down because that is when the disease of addiction will strike. I attend NA once a week and have found faith in God so I attend church every sunday, prayer group every Tuesday and bible studies every Thursday, its not everyone's thing but its my thing, I had to ask God for forgiveness for my sins because when I was in active addiction things got pretty hectic and you know what faith is helping keep me clean. Best part of sobriety is the relationships I am mending with my children! Claire xo

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