Early Days

 I decided to try and create a blog and document my recovery in the hopes that I will inspire or help someone else battling addiction even if they are battling in silence, I am here to share my Progress and the good and bad that comes with addiction,  I want to be as raw and honest as possible. Addiction isn't glamourous, its a constant battle everyday of your life, I wouldn't wish it upon my worst enemy, it can be exhausting, some days are harder then others, im finding recovery this time around is alot harder then last time when I got 8 weeks up but im constantly trying to be productive and utilise my supports as well as be as open as possible even though it makes me feel vulnerable but its better then my usual coping mechanism where I disappear from the people who care about me for 1-2 weeks because emotionally or mentally im struggling or manic and choosing to use drugs instead of be open and honest to the ones I trust and working through whatever I am feeling,  obviously what I've been doing in the last 12 months isn't working for me so this time around im doing things different im stepping out of my comfort zone and im reaching out as well as being as honest as possible,  ignoring the negative self talk that normally takes over and contributes to my isolation and relapse and maybe if I share what im finding helpful it may help other addicts with their sobriety as well as give them new ideas to try in hopes they benefit from it. Im going to recover loud and proud!